Trusting God

As you know, turning 27 has brought up all sorts of reflections about how different my life is from what I thought it would be. Looking back, I can see so clearly that this is exactly how my life should be and I wouldn't have it any other way--even the being single part. It's taken a year or two for me to accept that little detail and find contentedness in being single, since marriage and family has been my dream since I was a little girl. But it turns out, God knows so much better than I do just what path my life should take, and there are so many experiences, so many lessons that I would never have had if my life had taken the direction I planned for it.

Renee Johnson over at DevotionalDiva had a post about a month ago that got me thinking again about my own relationship experiences (not there have been that many). Like Renee, I tried eHarmony for awhile, too, until a particularly emotional break-up put me on my knees in prayer. God brought Proverbs 3:5 to my mind: "Trust in the Lord with all your heart; lean not on your own understanding," and I had to ask myself, "Do I trust God?" I realized that I do. Completely. He has never let me down before and I know He never will.

I can trust that He knows what's best for me and will provide for each of my needs--including a relationship--at just the right time. I don't need to go searching for romance or relationships in an attempt to find happiness. All I have to do is faithfully serve God in the life that He's given me. Sure, there will still be those days when I'm struggling to be content with single life, when weddings and baby showers and family functions remind me of the occasional loneliness of singlehood. But there's so much joy and hope in knowing that God knows my heart even better than I do and He has a plan for me that is greater than I can imagine.